Jan_In_Maine

Hi all - I'm still lurking. It's been interesting here - kind of a hurry up and wait. I have an appointment with the surgeon on the 24th .... Not easy waiting a long time - talked (messaging) with my FNP and she said that they look at everything and the most critical get in the soonest - and that she knows that it is difficult to wait, but she says it will happen. My kids have been attentive and I've spent a lot of time trying to get them to understand that it will be ok (whatever ends up) and they need to calm down a little bit. In my house we have a saying that everything is done "Ken's Way" and my DH is trying so hard to make everything perfect and for everyone to do everything NOW .... The only one that doesn't do things Ken's Way is his wife .... I'm having to explain that his need for all to drop everything and do everything is very overwhelming and that we need to let it ride out .... I am pro-active, but I also need to try to live my life with everyone being calm....and my problem is that I live my life loving my family so much that it is a little heartbreaking not to make it all better for them. Kind of a circle right now. So, we have a cruise the middle of August and we will lose 50% to cancel right now - and most of this cruise was done with FCC, talked with DH and he says that we don't know if I will be having chemo during that time point (it is now in 2 lymph nodes) - so we aren't canceling until after everything is figured out. I will go along with that - I'm hoping that we could reschedule to next year in August - funny how I would give up a med cruise next year for Alaska and I'm the one that hates winter/cold/and snow!!! I weighed myself this morning and I am down 1.4# from the last time I weighed (I think that was 2 weeks ago). I have been eating fine and have been staying healthy ... probably having a bit too much wine (but what the heck). Thanks everyone for listening - will try to be better at posting. Jan

Sounds like it will be a great cruise - was talking with DH about you and he thinks that I should "make the time" and he will go with me - I'll keep you posted! What type of puzzles? Picture puzzles or question puzzles? Jan

Izena - Thank you for thinking or me and thanks so much for the offer - as it stands right now I won't be available on that Sunday - I will touch base with you before your cruise, perhaps something will work. Where else in Maine does it stop? Jan

Heard from the doctor today - I have metastatic cancer and it has gone into my lymph nodes - amazing that can happen in a year. I will have to have a mastectomy and probably chemo. Not what I wanted to hear ... but hopefully everything will go well. All the kids know -- that was so difficult. I refuse to give up any bucket list cruises ... I will get through this!!! Jan

Good Morning Belle - Thanks for starting the post. I am not going to weigh for a little while, but I need to keep coming in and reading and writing posts. We had a great time with DH's brother and sister-in-law .... It included way too much food ... I believe that we went out for every meal - I did find food that I could share - had some lovely seafood in Bar Harbor and Southwest Harbor - Was beautiful to be on the coast and see the ocean with all the rocks and waves. Before we went on our trip I went for my annual mammogram and it came back with some problems ... I ended up having biopsies done yesterday (think there were 7) --- now just waiting for results ... which should be on Monday. Just keeping my fingers crossed. I have beautiful flowers in bloom - lilac's almost gone, poppies are amazing, fuchsia rhododendron early yellow azaleas and iris look lovely. I did plant some annuals and we have some vegetables growing in the back yard. Love this time of year. Hope everyone has a wonderful week. Jan

Good Morning Everyone - I have been reading all the posts and it is so nice to see everyone talking. I am currently in Southwest Harbor, Maine - (the quiet side of the island) other side is Bar Harbor. We are here with DH's brother and sister-in-law - they live in Iowa so it is great for all of us to get together every few years. We have a timeshare on the island, so it makes it easy and we have beautiful views - love Maine! I will try to check in later, but, don't think that this will be a week for a loss!!!! Jan